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[ecks]

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[ecks]

I did it because he had sent a message to the Joker saying he would pay the Joker to murder Doctor House and burn all of Doctor House's blood so Doctor House would not come back to life
Acceptable Reasons for Murder: If the person you are murdering sent a person to murder you or another person

I told him to rescind the order
he refused to rescind the order
it was necessary to rescind the order for him

who told you that I did this?
it is a secret

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Did it work to rescind the order? After he was dead, did the Joker say that he wouldn't go after Doctor House?

[Because he's willing to be that the answer is no, which makes this murder pointless rather than one of protection.]

[ecks]

[There is a long, long pause.]

after Mycroft Holmes was dead the Joker said he would not murder Doctor House

[When she writes it like that, it looks almost like one caused the other.]

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[He's not buying it, not with the pause that long.]

Because he was dead? Because you killed him? Or for another reason?

[ecks]

[Another long pause.]

because it would not be funny

I think Mycroft Holmes asked other people than the Joker to murder Doctor House

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And killing him won't have stopped them either.

You can't stop a murder remotely by killing the person who set it in action, all you're doing is taking revenge. That's not right, Ecks.

[ecks]

it was not revenge I do not murder for revenge it was defense of Doctor House because Mycroft Holmes would not rescind the order and I wanted to take his tablet and read all his messages and rescind the order in his name and make it so he could not reissue the order after I rescinded it and I did this because I was trying to prevent Doctor House from being murdered it was defense it was not revenge

text -> audio;

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[He switches to audio, unusually for him, so that Ecks can hear his tone of voice. Not accusatory, gentle but still firm.]

Ecks, stop. You know that's not true. Maybe that was the intent behind it, but that's not how it worked out. Mycroft had already sent the orders... maybe if you'd killed the people going after him, the Joker or-- whoever, then that would have been defence of Doctor House. But Mycroft had already done his part, you killed him because you were scared and angry, but you couldn't stop it. It was revenge.

[ecks]

if it had worked it would have been defense of dOctor House
I would not have done it for revenge

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You had to know that it wouldn't work. If you could have called them off so easily, then you could have just tied up Mycroft so he couldn't stop you and done it that way. You killed him, that was your choice, but you have to face the truth of that choice.

[ecks]

Dorian was very upset with me

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I'm kind of disappointed too, you're smarter than that, and you're better than revenge.

[ecks]

i thought i did it to protect him

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Did you stop to think? Or was he dead within minutes of you finding out? People like us, Ecks, we have to stop and think before we kill, or we fall back onto mistakes and bad habits.

[ecks]

i thought if i stopped it would be too late because he was intelligent and knew how to stop me

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Now you're just making excuses, you know this wasn't an effective way to protect anyone.

[ecks]

it is in my rules
Zell said it was acceptable to murder someone who sent someone to murder you
zell is my friend

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Every rule has to have exceptions, that's where choice comes in. You have to learn the difference between the acceptable situations and the ones that aren't.

[ecks]

that is hwy there are rules! te purpose of rules is to know!!

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Ecks, calm down. Rules are great, they do help, but part of learning and growing is figuring out when those rules need changing or breaking. Thinking for yourself.

[ecks]

[There's a long pause before she replies again, as she tries to obey that order and calm down.]

i thought for myself when I wrote the rules

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And that was good, an excellent building block. But you've grown since then, you have to keep trying to push yourself to learn. You made a mistake this time, the important thing is to own that and learn from it.

[ecks]

I don'tknow what to do now



instructions needed

[advanced]

You don't need instructions, Ecks, you're free to make your own choices. It's scary, I know.

[ecks]

I would like instructions