Don't you think your life, without choices and just obeying orders, hurt you? It's not just about permanent damage, after all, nor is it just about physical damage.
[Jesus. There is a lot here, that Claire doesn't feel qualified to unpack herself. It's way too much.]
I do believe you'd be alive, even without your creator making you obey whatever order he gave you. You seem like a strong, resilient person. But I don't want you to think you did anything wrong by following orders.
Because I liked following orders and knowing what to do, and I did not always know that the things I did were wrong. I know now. But I still like following orders and knowing what to do.
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religion talk
religion talk; abusive upbringing
[She's confused by the question.]
It was my life. It is how I became alive. I would not be alive if the person who made me did not make me to do the things he wanted me to do.
religion talk; abusive upbringing
I do believe you'd be alive, even without your creator making you obey whatever order he gave you. You seem like a strong, resilient person. But I don't want you to think you did anything wrong by following orders.
religion talk; abusive upbringing
[Just pointing out.]
And I think I did things that were wrong. I am very sure that I did things that were wrong.
religion talk; abusive upbringing
[Stop being obtuse, Ecks.]
But not because you wanted to.
religion talk; abusive upbringing
[She does agree with that.]
Because I liked following orders and knowing what to do, and I did not always know that the things I did were wrong. I know now. But I still like following orders and knowing what to do.